Bitter-Sweet Spring

Last semester of school (spring 2013) was a beast for me! For the first time in my life, I did not get strait A's and an occasional B. In fact, I received mainly C+ grades last semester. For those of you who know me, this is not typical of me. I have always valued my education and it is important to me to do exceptional. Do not think that I finally just decided to relax a little about school. Believe me, I was going turbo! I just struggled learning the concepts I needed to for my classes. It did not help that one of my professors did not show up half the time and he tested us from a book that was not listed in the syllabus nor did he tell us what book it was. Anyway, this past semester of school really dampened my moral and took a huge blow to my confidence. I even questioned my self worth because my entire life, I accredited my strengths and worth to my academic career then suddenly an earthquake hit my track record.

One day towards the end of the semester (late March) I found myself walking out the testing center again. I was able to see my score before I left. I definitely failed another test (failed test number 9 for the semester).  To get back to campus from the testing center at UVU, you have to cross this massive parking lot. It takes me about seven minutes to walk across it at a comfortable pace. So I was walking across this massive parking lot; it was so cold and windy. I had a break down and I was angry and sad. Just as I started to do the cry-hiccup (sobbing), I heard a tender voice say to my heart, "Sarah, you are my daughter and that is most important." My tears turned to tears of joy and suddenly, the stress and anger that I had been carrying for months did not matter anymore. I was okay with my current academic status of failing which probably sounds strange. I am so grateful to know that Heavenly Father was aware of me when I felt the lowest and made everything better. I am so grateful for the comfort that brings my heart because He was not aware of me just at that moment of distress, He is aware of me always.