Monday, May 28, 2012

Not-So-Great Expectations

Ever since I was little, I have had high expectations for myself. I have always felt the need to be the best. For example,  when I was six in first grade, I had to have more pencils than Jason Tatton. Later I had to be better than Michella Turner at basketball. Now, I don't feel that I need to be better than people, in fact, I prefer to help other people and encourage them rather than compete against them, but I expect nothing but the best from myself. I feel so excited on those rare occasions that I feel that I worked my hardest and achieved the results that I wanted. Those rare occasions are becoming more frequent and I feel more accomplished as I make an effort to progress everyday.

Here is the problem. I set high expectations for other people. I expect people to treat me a certain way especially those I have relationships with. I expect people to be completely honest with me. I expect them to work as hard as I do and put in as much energy as I do as I try to help, strengthen, and love them. When it comes down to it, I just want people to put as much into me as I do them. This is a big problem. Maybe I shouldn't have these kind of expectations for other people. If I didn't expect so much, then I would never be disappointed. So I am going to drop all expectations I have of other people and be thankful for what they actually give. I want to learn to accept people for who they are. I want to learn to love the strengths and weakness of others. I want to learn to love other people unconditionally without expecting anything in return. I want to dedicate each day to serving someone else. This should change my attitude if I focus on others right?

1 comment:

ann said...

I think its great this is something you have learned at such a young age.